i hate following patterns in pumpkin patch labyrinths. fuck it.

our discussions exhaust me. i cant stay away.

this. is a crucifixion.

and on the way back home...

96 degrees in the shade, and the bathroom smells so good! take a trip, and use the soap!

morning comes in paradise, morning comes in light.
if theres anything to say, if theres anything to do,
if theres any other way, ill do anything for you.

i cant put it in you. i can't...god what was it i said, "may I give it to her?"

yes. you said, "may i give it to her?"

"and if they never get with the bad ones, how is it they will ever come to appreciate the good ones?" -T

there is a moth on my head. "be with her if you want. i dont care. someone has to get stuck with her."

im falling in love, once more, in circles, here we go...

eric: i met some guy.Tom Soyer
mikk: right
eric: know him?
mikki: no. go on.
eric: oh, i thought you would know him, just wondering.
mikki: mark twain?
eric: thats different.
mikki: yeah?
eric: let it go, mikki!

because mikki, there is no way in hell i would date you.

animals may behave like that, but humans shouldn't. {amy sol}

first things first. if you have no knowledge as to who this man is, i simply cannot associate with you.

i hold far too much faith in humanity. use me.

got bruises on my knees for you. got pink and black and blue.
got permanently blue for you.

this list applying to my entire day, i invite you! go ahead and list the million ways he wronged you. your numbers are floating over my head. your words, right into my bread.{chomp} {chomp} {choke}

teamwork is a joint action by two or more people, in which each person contributes with different skills pertaining to their interests and opinions towards the common goal. In order for teamwork to succeed one must be a team player. batter up?

i had such an exploratory day. all the while i hoped yours was fair. night came, and the moment i found you in such an unpleasant state, my happy day vanished. now, all i can anticipate is your smile. i wish i could break through the dawn. morning is so far away.
photo: nights of cabiria, 1957

i wish to go backwards in order to avoid all the embarrassing incidents i have recently needed to share with you. im fighting the idea of this past denting your love for me...

"i do not want to have meaningless sex with strangers, i want to have meaningful sex with strangers.''
my lemon is missing the lime, and my mistletoe is rather horizontal.

yesterday i took a drive. up to spokane, over to coeur d'alene, and back down to moscow. the company was a delight and i sang through the whole drive. a better day could not be asked for!
a softer world

since turning 21 i have become a rather opinionated beer connoisseur. a word to all the kids out there: never settle for a thrity "bomb" of "key light." happiness is measured in bottles!

sometimes i miss you. for no apparent reason, i continue to work out the "why's" of the situation. somehow i know we will never be over.

'no matter what happens or where life leads us, you're my best friend.'

i have watched the film, factory girl three times in the last four days!
now, all my hearts desire is to be edie sedgwick!

soon
i
will
be
letting
go.

she who laughs at herself, never runs out of things to laugh at!

blitzen trapper along with my most favorite lady, alela diane, thao with the get down stay down, vetiver, and horse feathers (just to name a few) are all included in this years pickathon festival. the lineup looks spectacular! i hope to find a way to attend.

it has been days since i slept. i feel i will fall over.

james!

every night, i feel this way...

if the photos are black and white, and the people are beautiful, cigarettes are so very acceptable!

bottle caps have become my latest obsession! i am constantly picking these guys up! i have a small collection. with each party i go to, and latest beer i try, they fall right into my pocket to gather together in a brown paper bag atop my refrigerator! one day ill pull them down off my ice box and make something of them! perhaps put them on my fridge instead of atop!

this is what im holding on to. i will not let go. i simply cant.

i fail the test
to fall asleep.
tea.
i boil water. adding a bag
titled, "sweet dreams."
of course they will be, whilst i dream of you.
goodnight, lover. mutter your sweet words into the dark.
i'll try my damn-est to catch them!

dear friends and room mates,
my apologies for being a drunken idiot.

lessons learned:

1. riding bicycles in a dangerous house will create furry amongst room mates
2. smoking in the house will also create furry amongst room mates
3. liquor before beer. . .always
4. winter is a wonderful time to wear clothes
5. peanut butter after herb is in no ones best interest
6. there is no cure to a hangover
7. seven days from now i am likely to circle these feelings once more
8. growing up does not exist
9. i am free

and just like the day we met
all my heart wants to slip you
into its polly pocket
bi-fold wallet
tri-fold apology
saying sorry like you mean it
scream it!
fix me over and over

YOU CANT